Herb Chambers (Any %)
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It is June, in one week it will also be June; I try to tell William how
important he is before bed and he asks Can we stop talking about this
Dad. He’d rather discuss Mr. Gary’s visit next door, come in with
season’s first ditch-lilly, how he crosses his legs at the hairless glisten of
diabetic ankle, rings the doorbell of his mind, etc, but it’s locked from
the outside, etc, says to his host (Mr. Rick), Weeds all over the shop;
you’ll be one soon enough. What he doesn’t know is that somewhere
there is a man extremely frightened of his own shed, that someone or
something is living in his shed, and he’s posting videos about his shed
daily, strange sounds, doors opening and closing on their own with lights
flickering, basketballs falling off high shelves, which do prove that
something definitely isn’t right about the shed. I believe him. Not even
allowed to write something wrong now in this perfect world sorry to all
the perfect brothers and sisters out there. Louisa wakes up before it all
turns into what it’s about, reports that she’s awake for no reason and that
she’s crying, wants to know what’s going on (nothing), wants to
understand why this is happening, maybe, she proposes, it’s the second
blanket, entailing as it does no appreciable good or ill. Today is Joey’s
birthday. It is 6:30 in the morning and he’s whispering in my ear: To
master believing, all you have to do is tip the balance of your thoughts,
words, and actions from ‘not believing’ to ‘believing’. I do not believe
him. Tells me Franky drinks the air like chameleons do and in the
foreground there is a terrace or strip of ground strewn with shrubs and
undergrowth which contemplates resemblance, panorama with dominant
vertical. Update from home: spider, protein in the pool. Just how black
can an animal be—chewables or just the juice. Where my beasts without
my Will or Knowledge, and so on. Louisa asks me to wheel her outside
so she can be alone but the mosquitos are waiting to perform a sort of
non-consensual company (in the sense that they are already visiting).
Says she doesn’t care but she will, which is what a parent is. In and out
of wood, it’s gotta go somewhere. Trapped inside Herb Chambers with
the used and new vehicles and the everlasting deals, thinking about
sealing foam, draino, about how you’ll have to pick up the fertilizing
liquid and bring it to me, conjure your past, how once you were, when
fear was yet foreign to ye. Dog academy (sludge is everywhere), dog
academy (sludge is taking over), which makes the night hideous with its
howls, and which the court severs. Sowbread or swinebread. Dad’s
friend, Donny, used to say, Speak, O Toothless Wonder when talking
about his asshole, should’ve asked What is the event frequency of lake,
of hedgerow. Oriole on the lawn, time on device, disorder under heaven;
simple things, simple places, people. William announces the song is
called Bubbles, into corals into others, says he likes the taste of tears and
would punch himself a thousand times in the eye, geogony, to taste them
again. One big hole in the middle of the month that tasks crawl out of,
assign themselves to you via irregular mesh of milestones, small apes to
the sapling. Dirty Baby, in the felt, finds his rightful place at the brace of
the tree of the heart, beside, perhaps, a negative snake. Tobin’s hand on
my back reassures itself in the dark. There used to be more options
presented, too many to be honest, so that it felt like a casino sometimes
or pleasure park, now you get the one line if you’re lucky and better
follow it to the break in the metals if you want, to come anywhere near,
pin close to finding out. The trunk diverges from itself, makes a crook,
and so there’s an oak right where Nick puts the rubber worm, rendered
‘perfect spot’, underdefined until, and the whole fish with twitch from
gill to tail tip become one mouth entire, can do nothing but bite, and it
does, and in that way Nick gets to spend time with a fish, some few
minutes, call it patience, like there is night and there is day, night is
night, day is day, unbothered by dispute, girdles the entire whirl. At the
same moment, Scott writes that he’s very disappointed in our WEAK
showing. Front is Hawaiin shirt, under is work—dream of quiet:
Equally, radishes will never show their shoulders, flowers instead and
are excused, inexorably, from the arrangement. Cucumber’s however
come true, find their way to the door. Celebrating 14th Anniversry of my
Special Healing, William hunts the bugs and his uncle scoops them with
a purpose-made net, grafted to adequate, collects blacks, greens.
Yesterday a playful fish playfully shamed me. All it takes is a shake of
the head—forgiveness—rote. Did you bring the multi-knuckle is my
dad’s question, does he mean lift system, lawn flame. Nick wants to talk
Family Memories, tries repeatedly, but I find it impossible to participate,
however benign the exercise, lights in the trees in the dark floating out
past the Polaris Machine, the skimmer-gulp, come lower, closer, are
green blinks somewhere between embarrassment and forgetting. Plants
not burn; Fluvial Drumlins of the Soul, knitted world, TV turns on by
itself (This Old House) frightens both Will and I. At first, in our mutual
innocence, we blame each other, then the dog, but the truth is that no one
was in the room. Outside, above Stop and Shop hangs the sun,
unpleasantest red, orb, reduced to complete and painless visibility by
smoke from wild fires apparently, some half a continent away. Weeks
later the nurse confesses she scolded her granddaughter for staring too
long, What we don’t need is burnt retina. Under its baleful influence the
customers glare, snarl at their counterparts in the aisles, occurred these
horrid transactions, the cashiers on purpose break eggs at check out. The
parking lot fronts on our highly compact field of nightmare. Yellow; two
days. Might as well say The Plan is the Baby with Joey and leave it at
that, at most nod to the old man out on his walk, exercising those
faculties at large. Broad green across green water makes for further
shore except one dead tree there, another, closer’s the Queen Anne’s
lace which a lady is picking, up to her knees in poison ivy. I seen it,
Sky’s, the very air, gone milky, insistent, peradventure to press. If I
could give that to the birds I would, but I can’t, wouldn’t take it, forever
from the tawdriness. Louisa announces The Pump in the Rock from back
seat, draws water from same. Similarly, Tobin recalls, Isn’t these weeds
are forever, never, in any sense, to explain, only that there are no
flowers. Like in the Dream, shows a dog-sized mouse as author and
source of our recent haze, brown with a black stripe down the back and
white feet, must to kennel, ignores our traps, rattles cabinets with its
passage, somehow squeezes behind the fridge; or, as William contends,
he doesn’t want to pick, Babies can write that but sometimes regular
humans can too, and thereby lets the leak in. Otherwise, it is an extended
instance of clover, white and purple and busied about its length with
bees, run hard against whatever bitter edge, original bound, the world
then manages by all earthly effort to present or exhibit. Can’t force it,
tell yourself, have to accept, whether it’s shapes of spruce and bayberry
gardens or the new style of swimming Louisa’s invented, accommodates
her useless leg. Not that it would matter, but I’ve secretly named the
effort Mallard’s Burp. A forkful of vegetal mush partly contained by its
fibrous tube—July 26th, 2026 8:26pm, things get pleasantly flat,
interlinked, somehow lack discernment. Don’t know how to talk about
what one has done, even if, persons, an actual earth of value, like Louisa
with her leg up reduces the swelling. Pronounces a hard C in the middle
of ancient, like me, so that it’s ank-shent, incorrectly I’m told; as if
anybody required further proof just from looking at her, heredonymic
undervault, which flashing sign alleviates its native gloom. Similarly,
Franky’s ump ump ump pulses along, depicts a dog, until she’s left alone
in the dark and then it’s all One Scream with Hell over her head, the Exit
also, the texture and condition of love. Crab apple then, sunflower,
sequenced, obdurate, at turns break their way in, which I’m sure Franky
would prefer, back there, to sleep. Like cleaning the pool opens a
window, christens it unswimmable. Since I’ve been here or since I
remember being here, that one divot by weather’s consistent application
transformed into a hole. Ducks eat gravel under absolutely still
windmill, turbine into sea mist attended by flashing of leaves of bushes,
sparrow’s plip plop, at the very median of things, where heart’s the
marsh view. Englobed in Orb of Great Interest. When, unbidden, Skip’s
two dalmatians, deaf as posts, spring to my memory, they’d come
running when they saw the door open, spots, thankless teeth, uninspired
barking because deaf and could not hear themselves. Singing all
morning, regular bog person with his dirty, unhappy children, goes,
Picker’s chit O picker’s chit / Can’t forget my picker’s chit / Picked
twenty bushels for my picker’s chit / Less meat for it than a chicken’s lip
/ Picker’s chit O picker’s chit. More Deserving varietals all throughout
the maze, aching in the land of plenty, like cormorants together, out
beyond the line of swimmers, of stretched wings to wing-tips, watch
children from jetty rocks with ungenerous and yellowrimmed eye.
Nothing at all like that video of a bird falling in love with a woman,
lonesome as the word owl is. Non-trivial wallpaper job amounts to
repeating fruit or moth’s erratic solution to the garden, those swallows,
staggered and ramshackle, returning home. Louisa come downstairs,
says, I saw a heron that looked like a hunched over old woman out
there, over the marsh, the water. Something about jealousy presiding,
yellow with bunchgrasses, summer bridge activities thrown across self-
funding loops and/or elusive internal waves, about the soul is a friendly
weasel, a ten minute montage of cool and funny moments, my
suspicious lack of preoccupation, several cankers, ends with thanks for
watching which flashes on the screen three, four times. William, now
aware he is a figure here, asks that his accomplishments be
acknowledged and recorded, doesn’t understand Dad’s not in charge,
does not advance, is only better preserved, sport solely in the sense of
sudden and unexpected anachronism. Anyway, just to put it down, calls
this evening of the very pink wind Queen Mermaid’s Magic Hour, asks
why it has to be a poem and why I like poems so much. According to a
recent message, it doesn’t matter where you live—the same people
occur, like wild servers in the woods or flaws in foreign lens, this is
parent with child image, the very navel, ruint dome of the world. Next to
that is doves, two of them, folded together, from below on a wire, white
flowers festooned by accident to the struggling lawnmower, which
probably wants oil as much as she wanted, at all points, an audience.
Too bad pizza is a pancake with sauce and cheese on top. Birdie comes
running anyway, sore at her chines, proof that immortality is but
ubiquity in time. Dear Dad, Louisa writes, Through these long 11 years
and short few days, you have supported me. What, other than the
obvious, could it mean. The smaller the engine, the sooner its shadow is
cast. It’s unfortunate. Whither leads the shaft and all that, weird things
happening again, with seagulls and the moon.
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Alongside Holly Melgard and Joey Yearous-Algozin, CHRIS SYLVESTER has managed and maintained Troll Thread, a tumblr-based platform for experimental texts and internet-based works, since 2011. Aside from the eighteen books published on Troll Thread, he is also the author of BOOK ABT FANTASY (Roof Books, 2016), POEMS ABT ‘INTERN’ AND ‘PHIL’ THE INTERN (Area Sneaks, 2016), MY MOM MY DAD AND ME (Gauss PDF, 2017), and Gain of Function (Hiding Press, 2022). He lives with his family in central Massachusetts.











